Recovery. Not my strong point.
I have my problems. I want recovery, but want to run as far away from it as I can get. I want to eat again. But the mirror says otherwise. I want to stop cutting. But the blade keeps calling me back. I want my nightmares to go away. But they still return every night. This is my story of my journey towards recovery.
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Post reblogged from ED problems
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Photo reblogged from Survivor Rat
Top caption: Bullied so bad by peers that you contemplate suicide at age 11
Bottom caption: “Kids will be kids”
I hate this excuse more than any other excuse there is for bullying. Because my abusers are kids, it somehow magically excuses the emotional trauma I’ve suffered my entire life at the hands of my peers.
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So I posted a small rant about how Family Guy was a bit insensitive about dealing with self harm (the episode I’m referring to is where Lois has gained a lot of weight and then has a heart attack later. The scene involves Meg and is at the end of the episode. I felt like it perpetuated stereotypes about self harm. There’s also a clip from the episode about Peter about the guys building a play gym for Stewie and there’s a short thing about anorexia. Don’t know how I feel about that one. You can find it on the AnimationonFox channel.) Since I did that, I feel like I should share my opinion on the American Dad episode that focuses on Anorexia. So here I go. I actually liked the episode. Usually, shows like that are generally insensitive about topics like that. But in my opinion, they handled it well. I think anorexia was portrayed fairly accurately. I do think some of it was overly exaggerated. But with an eating disorder, anything can happen. So it might not be that far off. I actually feel like it was handled well. I think the whole idea of body image was handled well. One of the biggest things I liked was how it portrayed how people with anorexia see themselves. Stan looked in the mirror and saw he was getting fatter, even though he was losing a ton of weight. This is real. When I lost weight, I saw myself as getting fatter. That part is completely accurate. I think this happens to a lot of anorexics and EDNOS who are missing some of the criteria for anorexia. We still view ourselves as fat even though we aren’t (at least by non-eating disorder standards). I don’t know how accurate the support group scene was since I’ve never done group therapy for my ED. But I do know that the conversation between Stan and the girl afterwards is pretty accurate. A lot of people with eating disorders don’t think they have a problem and if they do know it’s a problem, they don’t want to recover. I can’t remember much of the episode right now, so I will update this post later when I’m at home since I’m on mobile right now. Overall, I felt like they did really well on being sensitive to the issue and portrayed things correctly. I think in a lot of media, things are portrayed to be different than they are. I feel like this was accurate and I like how it portrayed how eating disorders start and that it looked at a man with an eating disorder rather than a woman. I think that’s huge. So I liked the episode overall.
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Link reblogged from ED problems
“I’m an anorexic.”
“I’m a bulimic.”
”I’m a bulimiarexic.”
“I’m a binge eater.”
Actually, you’re not. You’re you. Your eating disorder is just one tiny part of who you are. You are not your eating disorder. You have an eating disorder, you are not an eating disorder…. -
FUCK YOU!!! Making fun of self harm isn’t funny.
Sincerely,
Fuck you and fuck off(P.S. Family Guy’s insensitiveness usually doesn’t bother me. But with self harm being such a big problem and stigmatized, I get to be angry. Not cool. It’s not cool.)
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Photo reblogged from Survivor Rat
Text: Top: Confronts parent about not stopping the abuse when it was right in front of her.
Bottom: She brushes off all the damage it’s done. She was just trying to love me. All parents make mistakes!
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Just recently blew up to her over the phone and confronted her about not stopping the abuse. It’s not that she didn’t notice. I came to her, crying. More than once. And all I got for asking for help was worse abuse from the abuser, and accusations of playing the victim and being over-sensitive and over-emotional.
It’s done so much damage, yet she just brushes it off. Still not hearing me and still making excuses.
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Post reblogged from ED problems
i would just like to remind everyone that only about 1/3 of eating disordered people are underweight. you can die from an eating disorder even if you are at a normal weight or overweight. you deserve help and recovery no matter what you weigh.
